Kerana gonad...e'eh...DONUT

Kalau tengok tajuk....mesti korang fikir cmni kan..

"persahabatan terputus kerana donut...."
"cinta pandang pertama kerana donut..."
"clash kerana donut"...

dan apa-apa lagi kerana gonad donut...

tapi.....ada dua manusia ni.....bergaduh kerana donut! bkn sebab berebut....tapi sebab mereka ini mementingkan adat melayu sangat yang menganjurkan bangsanya supaya bertolak ansur....hah!

KES: Nabilah Ahmad vs Fatin Shamsuddin
hakim:                 Atina Shahida Adnan
tempat kejadian:  bilik F318 blok Insaniah
tarikh dan masa:  22 Oktober 2011, waktu Maghrib gitu...

butir-buitran kejadian..

Atina bawak sekotak Nash Donuts pelbagai design dan rasa( bohong! rasa same je)...dengan niat nak edarkan kepada 12 orang classmates perempuannya...(okay skip this part yang nak tunjuk sikap dermawan atina)...pada waktu kejadian...bella datang bilik and aku(atina) suruh bella amek satu donut......then.........

bella: mane satu chocolate?
atina: bukan banyak ke chocolate??pilihla...
bella: aku nak yang ni...(sambil jarinya menuding ke arah satu donut coklat...

at the same time....fatin pun tengah tengok donut yang same and then....

fatin: e'eh...best kot donut coklat..
bella: ko nak ke??
fatin: eh, xpela..bella amekla...
bella: eh, xpela....ko amekla...aku tak kisah..
fatin: e'eh...xpe....saye tak suke coklat pon (fatin bohong...die ni fanatik coklat)
bella: ye ke??bohong! (pandai bella...x senang ditipu)
fatin: ya Allah! betul.......saye tak suke....(x nak ngaku)

bella tak puas hati, jadi die nak mintak kepastian dari aku....die tanye aku betulkah fatin tidak menyukai donut coklat...at the same time jugak...mata fatin mengerling ke arah aku dengan pandangan tajam...mata mengenyit..at the same time(banyak nye kau nye at the same time),bella ternampak mata fatin mengenyit kt aku...lalu...

bella: shit!!! kau tipu dowh!
fatin: hahahahahahhahahahahahhahahahahhahahahha(speechless sebab dah kantoi)
bella: kalau ko nak, cakap jela....aku cepat bersalah bab2 makanan ni(waddafish??)
fatin: eh xpe....amekla....aye taknak pun yang tu..
bella: okay, aku amek yang ni, pastu aku nak terus lari..aku tak nak tengok muke kau..nanti aku rase bersalah..

jadi itulah yang berlaku...selepas bella mengambil donut coklat sensasi tu, die bergegas keluar bilik dan tidak menoleh ke belakang lagi......aku pun bergegas ke surau..............................................the end..........

aku saje post pasal kejadian ni sebab aku rasa tertarik dengan adat melayu yang satu ni.....
                                                       
                                                            BERTOLAK ANSUR

kerana tolak ansur....mungkin donut tadi tu xde sorang pun nak amek...tu pun sebab bella tak menoleh ke belakang donut tu diambil...kalau tak???
kerana tolak ansur....budak-budak Melayu sume duduk di belakang kalau berada di dalam kelas atau kuliah atau di dewan atau di ceramah ke......last-last...budak2 bangsa lain yang dapat ilmu...kite dapat ape??
kerana tolak ansur....hak-hak Melayu makin lama makin berani dipersoalkan dan dipertikaikan....portion bagi orang Melayu makin kecik....ape lagi yang tinggal nanti???
kerana tolak ansur juga....kepala kita makin dipijak-pijak oleh 'gajah-gajah' dan 'badak sumbu' yang pada luarannya nampak tersenyum kambing pada kita, tapi dalam hati penuh dengan kebencian...

bukan aku nak cakap tolak ansur ni tak bagus....islam sendiri menganjurkan agar kita bertolak ansur..TAPI BUKAN DALAM SEMUA PERKARA!......ingat tu.....dalam islam, selagi mana tak menentang agama, tak bercanggah dengan syariat,ha bertolak ansurlah kau...tapi apabila sesuatu perkara tu dah sampai menyentuh sensitiviti agama, dah sampai boleh menggugat akidah umat islam, istilah bertolak ansur sudah tidak ada...
begitu juga dengan isu Melayu ni.........

sampai tahap mana kita nak bertolak ansur????

haihh....nak jadi Melayu, biarlah bertempat...tempat yang sepatutnya kita amalkan adat-adat kemelayuan, taklah pulak kite amalkan...ni bile keadaan dah ibarat telur di hujung tanduk, takkan kite nak tunggu telur tu jatuh sampai jadi Humpty Dumpty sat on the wall???yang tak boleh disambung-sambungkan semula.........

akhir kata........janganlah kerana sebiji donut, hak-hak kita dibiarkan menjadi milik orang lain........

STRES!!!

HOMAIGOD!! atina stres??like seriously??once in every three times of blue moon kot nk dengaq atina cakap dia stres.......

Ya!! tapi itulah hakikat yang benar dan sesungguhnya tiada yang benar melainkan yang benar belaka.....
mesti korang tertanya-tanya apakah yang telah membuatkan atina stres???(waahh!ni stres kes berat 100kg ni sampai dpt sindrom bahasa baku)\

SEBAB-SEBAB ATINA STRES...................
 (btw, kite mmg suke meng-pointform-kan benda)

-ha.............................alkisah hati ek sampai stres2 ni????eeeeeekkkkkkkkk
-apa hal lak???mentang2 aku umo 18, tak semestinya sume bende berkaitan hati...............aku ni single ready to mingle lg...........................*blinkblink*

1.  plg top ah...sbb i busted myself up in the standardised test 2............aaaargghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!screw u chemistry!!!mmg stres sampai tahap nk freehair ah!!
2.  sbb tgh 'in the time of the month'...soo mmg bad mood....aargghh!
3.  sbb tgh berperang dengan hati tentang...............tentang.......errr.............rahsia!takeh bagitau...arghh!!
4. sbb takleh jadi muslim yang baik bila orang buat maksiat, tak mampu nak mencegah sbb takut apa  orang kata....arghh!
5. sbb asyik nak terkencing jeeeeee........tapi cerewet bab2 toilet ni...aargghh!!
6. sbb kredit fon taknak habis2......makin bertambah adelah.........napela kena ade expiry date....arghh!!
7. sbb asyik sakit je kat sini(Kolej Mara Kuala Nerang).....
8. sbb jerawat tumbuh bagai cendawan lepas taufan Katrina....argghh!!!!
9. sbb memang bosannn..................haihh........................................................................................
10. yang paling sedih...............aku tak boleh/mampu ceritakan apa yang aku rasa ni pada sesiapa.......sbb aku masih belum jumpa orang yang sesuai................................................(mungkin dah jumpa, tapi mcm kena reject je..hahahaha)

HAH!!!! legamacambarulepasshishi....heheheh ok..abaikn yang nombor 5 tu...(walaupun hakikat)...
*istighfar**istighfar*.....

tapi jujur aku cakap, aku sangat stres and aku makin merasai benda tu...mungkin dulu time SPM aku stres tapi aku tak rasa sangat sebab dunia terasa indah di samping kawan2 walaupun aku amek 10 subjek...tapi kini, hanya 4 subjek, tapi stresnya Ya Allah...................................................(tunduk seketika)...

....bagilah aku kekuatan dan ketabahan dengan sinaran nur iman.....
ikhlaskanlah hatiku untuk berada di sini......ingatkanlah aku tentang nikmat dan kebesaran-Mu........

Memang, aku sentiasa ingatkan diri aku sendiri yang Allah tak akan menimpakan sesuatu ke atas hamba-Nya dengan ujian yang tak mampu dia tanggung...tapi sebagai manusia yang penuh dengan kelemahan, memang aku tak mampu lari dari menjadi lemah......ni la masalah aku....terlalu ingin nampak kuat pada mata ibu ayah, adik2, kawan2.......sentiasa ingin senyum walaupun di sebalik 32 batang gigi ni(betul ke 32??),banyak kesedihan,keresahan yang melanda jiwa....(bapak ayat kau!)

Nak tulis entry ni pon aku pikir 2, 3 kali gak.....sbb i'm not the type who opens up to just anyone...but maybe i just can't take it anymore.....for about a week ago, i've been crying silently to myself(without anyone knowing...okay now u know)...over what???i don't even know......that's the biggest problem,i don't know what is wrong with me but i know something's not right somewhere.......deep inside.....

I'm not ready to open up about 'the heart' issue because i don't like to talk about something that's not certain....but when it is, when the time comes, insya-Allah I'll tell you guys okay....

for the time being, to those who are have read this, or currently reading this, and are about to read, please pray for my well-being....pray that i'll always gain strength to move on with this life...pray that i'll always have the spirit to always smile.............and pray that i'll meet someone to guide me to the right path(preferably the opposite sex)okay i'm just kidding...ahahah my God, why do u have to be so serious?it's called joking...duhh!

p/s : so sorry for not updating this blog for a long time...i know some of u have been asking about it(ceee,mcm la ade peminat)....i'll try my best to make time to blog....adios!!!

ALLAH LOVES YOU!!

takde mood nak raya...

As ridiculous as it sounds, yeah, it's the truth. Serius, memang takde mood/perasaan nak raya tahun 2011 ni...

7 SEBAB KENAPA ATINA TAKDE MOOD NAK RAYA

1. i lost 2 of my most precious people this year; my grandma and Makchidah.....alfatihah....
2. banyak lepas dan terlepas peluang nk buat Qiamullail masa Ramadhan..there goes my Lailatulqadar..
3. No raya shoes this year!!
4. tak main mercun pop2/bunga api tahun ni...
5. no one light up the pelitasss.........
6. tak buat satu pun kuih raya tahun ni...sume beli...
7. lecturers bagi assignment..hahaha

ala.....7 je ke....cukupkanlah 10, lawa sikit nombor tu..err.....jap3...perah otak ni..

TAMBAHAN 3 SEBAB KENAPA ATINA TAKDE MOOD NAK RAYA TAHUN 2011

      8. tak dapat satu pon kad raya(kad yang sebenar2 kad, yang guna pos Malaysia tu!).....shedey..=(

      9. tak dapat raya rumah kawan sebab kene balik kolej...

    10. sebab dah memang takde mood nak pikir ape sebab terakhir yang menyebabkan aku takde mood      

          nak raya tahun ni...

cukup munakahat munasabah kan sebab2 yang aku bagi ni??tak tau dah nak buat mcm mane...dah try dah beberapa terapi nak meransang..merangsang..merangsan...ughh!! mane satu ni??mentang2 dah lebih 7 bulan tinggalkan Bahasa Jiwa Bangsa...buat teruk lak BM! OK...i've tried lots of ways to get the mood back to celebrate this annual celebration thingy....i sang raya songs..by raya songs i mean Suasana Hari Raya, Balik Kampung and all the other happy-merry-satty songs...not the ones that make you cry and grief all day long..still, i sang badly..(which i don't usually do because i love singing!)...i tried talking about all the fun stuff about raya with my friends...yet...it didn't even give me a flinch of excitement..

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME??!!

nothing's wrong with me...i just simply don't have the mood because the people that i love won't be celebrating raya with me this year......isk3....nothing will ever be the same now....................goodbyethankyou.

Babai Perottt! ='(

[Sony Ericsson message tune]

"Nothing lives forever ='( " -amir

I thought he was joking about it...well, my family likes to joke around on things that aren't supposed to be joked about,like this!!

the worse part is, i got the news 2 days before my birthday!

and the second worse part is, i was joking about it being dead with the real Perot, the person who gave me this living creature which i also named Perottt(with triple 't') days before that..i told him that the hamster was dead because i somehow stepped on it accidentally...

three words;

MULUT MASIN BHAII!!

awal-awal, sumpah aku tak percaya adik aku cakap si kecik tu dah mati......terlalu drastik!, plastik!, akustatik! , pelik-stik!...aargghh!! tapi......macam orang kata....berita kematian jangan dibuat main-main...(ceeee, dan2 cakap orang kata sedangkan dia yang kata)

haiiihh....macam manalah aku nak cakap kat tuan yang bagi binatang ni....nak salahkan adik seorang pembunuh pun, ni takdir tuhan.... 

Ammar al-Haqim bin Rafiee, if you happen to read this post, I AM DEEPLY SORRY!!!! I was away when it died and I just........just....couldn't...........................................................save it..(sigh)

well, you shouldn't have given me a living thing in the first place..haha!(don' read this)

well..last words....Perottt, you've been a great companion..although i've never actually held you in my palms because you would just bite me, or tried to bit me....but watching you do your crazy acrobats, climbing your cage to get out(even though you know it was impossible because you're sooooo fat!!), staring at you while you bite away the cage, dance in your bathing sand and greedily take all the food and kept it in your mouth were  entertaining...and amusing....and........and............WAAAAAAA!!!! i can't believe you're gone! what am i going to do with all those cages?the food??the toys??isk isk isk....

well...at least i have this memory of you.......

i really do miss this time when u would just stare at me.......(sigh)

Perottt, if you're out there somewhere reading this, i just wanna say I'm really sorry for not being there till your last breath...i'm sorry my brother didn't take care of as well as i did(hahahaha)......

again;

BABAI PEROTTT..........

"Setiap yang bernyawa pasti akan mati..." (al-Imran:185)

kematian Perottt sangat mengingatkan aku pada kematian...kematian dia tiba2, tak dirancang(memangla!), tak disangka...begitu juga kita manusia....siapa tahu ajal kita bila kan tiba..jadi...marilah kita mempersiapkan diri kita bagi menghadapi kiamat kecil itu demi kehidupan yang hakiki di akhirat nanti...insyaalllah...

  

Sweet 18.........

Happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you...
happy birthday to Atina Shahida Adnan....
happy birthday to youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

ughh! somehow...i'm not very keen of birthdays..

OMG???atina???are u serious???birthday is like everything to everyone!
well anonymous, not me then....wanna know why??

* at the time of your birthday, all eyes are on u!-u always get the attention from almost everyone! which i am not used to...awkward.....
*u would have to think about what u wanna have for your birthday.....which is really hard for me because i am not a gadget freak! i am not brand-conscious or status conscious or whatnot...and i think what i have now is enough...soo....when my parents asked me what do i want, that would be the hardest question ever!
* birthdays mean celebration!!- the decision maker is always the birthday girl/boy-in my case, i would have to choose where i wanna eat..which is as hard as thinking about birthday presents! because....my choice would always be the last choice for my siblings..............i would go for ikan bakar, thai restaurants, somethin like that..and that is like the opposite if what my siblings like....that's why when my parents asked me the 'cepumas' question,

"so, tina..nak celebrate mane malam ni??"
i would just simply say...
"ikot korangla....."

haha a safe one...

so since this is my sweet 18th birthday..a number when almost every teenager sets as 'a step to adulthood'...i call it pre-adulthood..i would like to post something about it..

18 means...
*you're eligible to have your own ATM card..
*you're big enough to get married(haha!)
*you're allowed to watch ANY movies at the cinema(YAY!astarghfirullahalazim...)
*you're no more a school student(awww.....so sad, not!)
*you're a.....aa....umm....an 18 years old kid!!! hahaha

unlike any other of my birthdays, this time it was a full house! i have all my family members to celebrate with me...mom,dad,abang,ja and amir(just assume that you guys know them)...it means a lot to me that we all could just be together for a while...which is such a rare occasion to happen nowadays....(sigh)

we went to Seoul Garden(ayah's favourite place) a day earlier...no idea why it was a day earlier than my birthday..but hey, who cares..food knows no time and date....

these are our memories together...have a look!

mama and dada

aii...tringin berpurdah ke tina..

haha.

wah wah wah!!

candid! =D

FULL HOUSE!

aha! u guys might be wondering what i got this time....i'm telling u, it's a tough decision..[drum roll!]

kamus BESTA MD856!!

-HA???u got a freakin dictionary for your birthday??18th birthday?????
hey! electronic dictionary tuuu...jgn memain....


-aha aha aha aha......[monolog]skemanye budak ni...kesiannye aku kt die...
nape kau bg pandangan simpati kat aku??


-woi!! hang tau dak time umoq 18 ni la hang nk mintak kaw2 punya kt parents hang..iphone ka, ipad ka, macbook pro(sak) ka, make-up M.A.C ka, jam tangan swatch ka, keta mini cooper ka, rumah banglo ka......ni mintak kamuih buat apa??kena gelak kt orang ja...apala hang ni..dhla, aku tak nak kawan ngn hang dah...
err.....sejak bile kite kawan..kenal kau pon tak.....


hahahaha...tak kisahlah ape orang nak cakap, aku tetap aku...aku rasa syok ape dapat kamus elektronik ni..macam-macam adaaa.....MP3 ada, takwim ada, sejarah ada, chemist ada, physics ada, kamuih tok sah duk cakap ah...nak kamuih apa??english?arab??cina??semua ada...haaa...all in one ah...nk call and message je tak leh...lagipon, aku dh cakap awal-awal aku bukan minah gajet..aku tak minat i-i ni..i phone la apalah...aku dah ada phone dah...dua lagi tu...camera ade dah..laptop pon ade...jadi nak tambah barang yang ade charger, aku mintaklah kamus besta ni,sebab die ade charger(watahell?????)..haha aku gila charger...hahahaha takdak ah...gurau je..lagipon, lepas ni, tak perlulah aku membebankan tangan aku yang muscle nye dah lembik ni untuk mengangkut kamus2 tebal itu macam jentera kaut tu....sekarang, dengan adanya kamus besta ini, anda hanya perlu klik sahaja...(wow!exaggerate gila!)

anyway, THANK YOU MOM AND DAD for the awesome gift!

then...aku dapat selendang warna belang-belang biru dari adik aku, ja...wohoooo! macam tau2 je kakak dia gila gelang selendang...

THANK YOU JA!

soo.....setakat ni...tu jela kisah manis 18 aku.....biasa-biasa je..takde party2 macam rebecca black yang berparti setiap jumaat tu..kite sebagai umat islam perlu bersederhana..patot bersyukur yang Allah dah panjangkan umur kite sampai sekarang...sume nikmat alhamdulillah masih ade...jadi, kalau dah tiba harijadi tu, janganlah kite terlalu berseronok sampai lalai...seronok sebab nak dapat hadiah..seronok sebab ehem2 bawak kite kluar makan..seronok sebab perhatian sume kat kite...seronok sebab birthday kite ade kat reminder facebook sume orang...sebaliknya, bersyukurlah sebab Allah masih panjangkan umur kite,dan ingatlah bahawa semakin meningkat umur kite, semakin dekatlah kite dengan kematian....insyaallah, dengan peringatan yang tak seberapa ni dapat mendekatkan kite lagi pada Yang Maha Esa...aminn...


p/s: aku tak larat nak wish thank you kat sume org yang wish kat aku kat facebook...sooo...THANK YOU sume! =DDD dalam blog pon jadilah ye...sy ni pemalas sikit..hahaha

MY ESSAY......

                                                                MEDICINE:A Passion, A Devotion

“As for life, it is a battle and a sojourning in a strange land; but the fame that comes

after is oblivion.”

            If I could just picture how devotedly I am to the world of medicine, the best way would be by imagining how a toddler would act just to get an ice cream. One would jump and scream and throw tantrum to get what he/she wants.For short, he would do everything for anything.Likely, I would do almost anything to get a spot in the field of medical, to be the most dedicated pediatrician in the country.It all started in primary school when everyone was asked of their ambition and almost everyone would answer, “I want to be a doctor”, including me.But, unlike many others, I’ve never changed my mind since then. I am, on the other hand is just an ordinary girl, living an ordinary life, looking for an extraordinary future named Atina Shahida Adnan

Setting a good foot in education since primary school, I developed most of my traits at MJSC Taiping.Leadership, interdependence, communicative skills and of course, a day of more maturity than before. Presenting my previous school in elocution for the National Language Week and the Engineering Design Exhibition(EDX) has really cultivate the soft skills in me in terms of my interaction with the society and my way of thinking. My experience being under MARA education institution for five years has put a great trust on me to apply for this scholarship because I know what MARA can provide us bumiputera students in regards of a world-class education.

            Australia. The land of koala bears has caught my attention since secondary school. The hospitality, the humane traits of their people, and of course the high quality of education that they provide especially in the medical field, has put the eagerness in me to further my studies there, preferably at the University of Adelaide-School of Medicine. Then, I plan to serve my country and gain as much experience and skills as possible before continuing my specialization on pediatrics in the University of Utah, where I was born in the middle of summer of 11th June,1993. Why pediatrics? Each time I come across a picture, video, or simply by witnessing with my own eyes, of physically or mentally challenged children, it really moved my heart to the extent that treating and providing these children with the best care and hospitality has become my main priority in life. Children, to me are the pictures of tomorrow. As they say health is wealth, the well-beings of these group of people is fundamental in determining the state of our country in the future.

Once it was a dream. Sheer hard work, determination and passion for children’s well-being, has pave the way for me to realise my dream.Now, by getting an opportunity to pursue a medical degree in a reputable foreign university, I certainly believe I’m a step closer to making my passion a profession.

By Atina Shahida Adnan

ps: saje aku nak abadikan sebagai kenangan apply interview MARA.......

Shoo tears! don't make a mess here...

MAAF, ANDA TIDAK BERJAYA.

is there an easier or maybe a more polite way to say to someone that you are rejected for something??i guess not...
Should i be frustrated over this???i guess not...
Should i be happy about it??of course not!
so what should i do to shove off this uneasy feeling at the pit of my stomach??

Firman Allah s.w.t

“Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedangkan kamu tidak mengetahui.” (Al-Baqarah: 216)




there, i found the perfect healing power which i found in the holy Quran..just what i really needed at this breaking point..heartbroken?yes,but lessen after i read this words of almighty God...


some people would kill their frustration by doing more frustrating activities;
1- eating a whole carton of ice cream- this will make you fat, which gives you a more depressing appearance, which eventually will make u feel even worse!
2- cry yourself a river- a waste of body fluids which is extremely detrimental to health. besides, it'll make you sleep even easier because when you cry so hard, you tend to get sleepy very easily, which is waste of the valuable times you have to value the beauty of life.
3- hang yourself to death/jump off a building-need i say more about this??


STOP ALL THIS!!!!!


i think the best way to kill that uneasy feeling,frustration and heartbreak is by giving yourself a teeny weeny bit of reverse psychology..get it??no??ok..


When you are all tensed up, you automatically can't, incapable of pulling of a smile.soooooo, why can't it be the other way around..


X: hey! i heard you broke up with your boyfriendssss...
Y: (frustrated inside)yeeaahhh...heheheheheheheehhe =D


see?? a little giggle, regardless if it's a fake one or without sincerity, could help you lessen the negative feelings you have..


When you are heartbroken, the trick is to glue them back altogether.How??easy...
entertain yourself! do anything fun and amusing. list down a few activities which represent the pieces of your broken heart. when you put up at least a smile after doing one activity, assume that a piece of your heart is glued back.


well, these are just some of the remedies that i've come up with to console myself whenever i'm heartbroken. I intend to look at things, i.e the rejection from a different perspective. Maybe...just maybe, i didn't get what i wanted because it really is not the best for me..Instead of blaming myself or worse, cursing myself, I told myself that which ever road you take, as long as you arrive to that particular destination, that's what counts in the end.


so MARA, you let me down but you haven't succeeded in killing me. I still have Allah, my one true love that will always be beside me,forever and ever. Allah, whatever you have planned for me, i want You to know that I'll be patiently waiting for it.


tetibe tringat kat lagu Always Be There-Maher Zain

Maher Zain, you really have 'pujuk' me..hahahahhahahahaha


p/s-congratulations to all my friends who have been offered MARA scholarships!!make me proud guys and gals!!

UIA HERE I COME!!!

jadi ustazah lah aku lepas ni...insyaallah...