Poem-If I Had The Chance

IF I HAD THE CHANCE

by TinaTito



If I had the chance
The chance of making my own choice,

I don't think I ought to be where I am right now.

But the choice is not mine to make,

and the chance is not mine to take.

Because the choice(which I think it is),

is actually my destiny.

If destiny could be chosen,

Then why ask for another chance?

If I had the chance,

I don't think I want to be a medical doctor.

I might as well be a poet, or a writer,

Or even a lecturer, just like my father.

But that's just it, I didn't have a choice

Because in the first place, this was my fate.

God has paved the road that I'm about to take

in such a way that every single day,

I would pray,

that I become someone I ought to be,

not someone who I want to be.

Want to and ought to are two different english words,

Even if you spell it out in a foreign accent,

they would still be different terms.

What I want is what I don't need.

What I need is a certainty.

Certain that I want to be what I ought to be. 

So if I had the chance,

I would delete all the choices I have,

So I could erase all the temptations,

and make my way to the destination,

that God has set for me through His lense.

(this poem gave birth on Wednesday, 8.15-8.40 pm)