Sunday, November 27, 2011

Dakwah ituu...

Aku sangat tertarik dengan apa yang seorang kawan aku, Wan Ainaa Izyan merangkap ketua Jana Taqwa Amal Islami(JTAI) cakapkan dalam tazkirahnya pada bacaan terakhir sebelum aku balik menuai menunaikan cuti sem(my god, ayat kau!)..tulah, ada sebab Allah gerakkan hati aku nak pergi bacaan malam tu..Kalau ikotkan nafsu dan syaitan, bole je skip bacaan and layan movie ke, layan jiwang ke ape..tapi alhamdulilah atas hidayah Allah, aku pergi jugak. Lagipun, memikirkan itu kali terkahir aku akan jumpe kawan-kawan FIST-Australia aku, aku gagahkan hati jugak(walaupun sumpah time tu mengantuk tahap gaban)..teringkat lak kata-kata ustazah,

"Kalau bukan kerana hidayah Allah, ustazah ade kat sini bagi ilmu, kamu dah kat tempat laen.."...hmmm *mendongak*

Back to our main content, malam tu apabila Ainaa tanya sape nak bagi tazkirah, as usual being the most humble human on Earth, sume orang tunduk sampai nak cecah bumi tu habaq hang! termasukla aku-aku sekali...and Ainaa, being our angel who always has something to say.....said..

"Sebenarnya, bagi Ainaa, dakwah tu macam aiskrim......Cube bayangkan kite tengah makan aiskrim depan kawan kite..and then die tanye,sedap tak aiskrim tu??Kite pon dengan senyum kambing akibat minum Hi-Goat banyak sangat(ok ni takde dlm skrip) cakap sedaapppppp....ada jelly dalam ni, ada tu, ada ni...Pada zahirnya, kawan kite pon nampak aiskrim tu, tp rasa die hanya kita yang tahu mcm mane...Jadi untuk membenarkan kata-kata kita(sebab ayah kata kite tak bole caye orang 100%, so kene experience sendirila), kawan kite pon belilah aiskrim yang sama...and dapat menikmati kelazatan aiskrim Matkool Jelly yang sama "

Hah! begitulah realiti dakwah..ok, skrip Ainaa kat atas dah banyak kene corrupt, tapi yang penting isinya..kan kan kan???

Seperti juga dakwah...pada mulanya, kenikmatan iman tu hanya kita yang rasa...tapi apabila kita menzahirkannya---dengan cara menutup aurat, berperibadi mulia, sentiasa membuat amal jariah, orang akan mula tertarik dengan kita dan akan mendekati kita. Secara tak langsung, akan timbul minat dalam diri orang tu untuk mencontohi kita...tanpa kita sedar, dakwah telahpun berlaku...

Takrifan dakwah ni luas. Tak semestinya yang terang lagi bersuluh tu saje dakwah, yang kecil-kecil, yang kabur-kabur tu pon boleh dikira dakwah, selagi mana ia menimbulkan kesedaran dalam diri seseorang..Tapi, kebanyakan kita, bila cakap pasal dakwah, mesti pikir ceramah, majlis ilmu yang berjam-jam tu,tabligh la,jambangla....sedangkan  maksud dakwah tu luas sangat! Kadang-kadang, dalam kita tak sedar, kita sebenarnya berdakwah...

-aik??mcm mane tu ustazah tina??(haha perasan jadi ustazah jap)

Example 1

Ummi Sarah(sorry Ainee, pinjam identiti jap) yang bertudung labuh bidang '60 melalui seorang perempuan freehair di mana-mana jela...(malas nak pikir tempat kejadian). Perempuan tu nampak Ainee dan berkata dalam hati.."wuihh!lawanya dia pakai tudung..tudung pon lawa, bila orang pakai nampak lagi lawa...hmm...syok jugak pakai tudung ni rupanya...pahala pun dapat, cantik pon cantik...aku nk try gak ah"

analisa---haaa...nampak tak dalam tak sedar sebenarnya si Ainee ni dah berdakwah..sedangkan minah freehair ni tak kenal pon Ainee ni sape..

-tapi, tu pada zahirnya saje Ainee nampak baik..ntah2 di sebalik tudung tu, berbintat2 dengan love bite!!
-wuihh! yang hang buruk sangka ni awat??hang tau dak sebahagian daripada berburuk sangka tu dosa??ainee tu baik ka, tak baik ka blakang cerita la..yang penting, perempuan tu dah tergerak hati nak menutup aurat lepas tengok ainee tu..yang hang tak puas hati ni awat??

Example 2

Rosli Dhobi(aii, mai masuk sejarah dah) tengah baca Quran kat surau Al-Huda(pinjam surau kolej jap)..kebetulan, ada seseorang terdengar bacaan die and terpegun seketika mulut ternganga tidak terkata...orang tu pon pergi mendekati Rosli.

Matt---{wuihh! Li, sedap hang baca Quran..aku tak tau pon hang reti baca Quran..tengok gaya rugged ala Bob Marley, tapi baca Quran bukan maen lenggok..sejuk perut aku dengaq hang baca..}
Rosli---{awat lak perut hang yang sejuk lak ni???hang mak aku ka??gila! takda la matt...biasa-biasa ja aku baca ni...lagipun, al-Quran ni kan kalamullah..kita mana bole baca maen2...mesti tartil dan bertajwid..kalau boleh berlagu, lagi baguih..}
Matt---{tapi, aku tak sangka hang macam ni..kalu tengok kot luaq, mati-mati2 hidup balik aku akan sangka hang mat rempit..kurus kediang, rambut kusut, muka cengkung..mcm orang high pon ada..awat hang tak pakai kopiah ke apa..takdala orang bersangka buruk ngn hang nanti....}
Rosli---{matt2....tulah hang..habeh hang ingat semua orang yang berkopiah ni baek sangat kah?orang pakai kopiah pon buat benda haram...pegi masjid, semayang jemaah tapi hisap rokok..apa cerrrr....kebaikan seseorang tu bukan pada luaran, tapi hati dia....ikot pi la dia nak pakai macam mana pon, asalkan masih menepati syarakla kan, tapi amalan biaq tiptop..
Matt---{hmm...betoi gak...pas dengaq hang baca Quran ni, aku rasa syok nak ikot..tapi aku tak reti...hang ajaq aku bole Li??}

analisa------haaaaa........much clearer???nmpk tak daripada mulanya si Matt tu just nak memuji bacaan Rosli ni, tapi last2 menjadi satu perkongsian ilmu...tak pasai-pasai malaikat turun mengelilingi mereka..wahhhh.....

Jadi, aku rasa 2 contoh pon dah cukup untuk menerangkan analogi aiskrim tu...Dakwah tu boleh berlaku di mana-mana..tak perlu ada ceramah, tak perlu pangkat ustaz, even dengan ajnabi pon boleh berlaku dakwah..macam sekarang  ni...aku just nak berkongsi ilmu...aku bukanlah ustazah, hafizah, pelajar sekolah agama ke, i'm just an ordinary girl..but as a Muslim, when you have something good to say, you must, i repeat, you MUST spill it out in whatever ways possible so that you won't be questioned of your role as a khalifah by Allah in the afterlife...The job as a dai'e is every muslim's job, not entitled to those with religious background only...so guys, let's make some heart changes for this new year and may Allah bless us all..

p/s---joinlah usrah untuk sentiasa meningkatkan iman kite..tak rugi woo join usrah!

JOM MAKAN AISKRIM!! 

"Dan hendaklah ada di antara kamu segolongan umat yang menyeru kepada kebajikan, menyeru kepada yang ma'ruf dan mencegah yang munkar, merekalah orang-orang yang beruntung." (QS. Ali Imran [3] : 104).


baca ni betoi2!!

buang kata-kata ini dari hati kita....kita semua adalah pendakwah..


The Last Wave..(Farewell, CFSIIUM)

I never thought I had to go through another farewell again..another moment of despair, another minute of telling the bitterful truth that you're leaving, and another second of facing the reality that everything is going to change,again...if i had known this, i would never make an effort to be good to anyone, to be a part of a mutual relationship, or just to be noticed by anyone..but again, this is all God's work..and there's always a mystery gift behind every event and situation..

I never look at all this as a test of faith, a test of patience and a test of will..i simply take it as another door of opportunity for me to have a better future in what i'm about in enrol in. Just like the first time when i was offered to study in MRSM, that time i was getting really close with my classmates in SMKBJ and trust me, it was a tough decision i had to make..to have to be apart with some of your closest friends ever(which ironically now are not)...but...look at what that choice has turned and got me into..=DD i had to say it was the right choice..and now, i'm about to risk my life once more, to take another doubtful,uncertain step that could either be a quicksand that would suck you and suffocate you till you can't hold it no more or you could be stepping on a fragile glass that would break into pieces and you'll fall down to the valley of doom!(omaigod i'm crapping) or you could just be lucky again this time and make it to another step..

-Ok2! cut the crap! what is this all about actually??..

One fine night after Maghrib prayers..

[Sony Ericsson message tune]

Ayah : ada tawaran MARA buat program 1 tahun medical UNIKL-Royal Medical College Perak di Kuala Nerang.berminat?

this is where it all started..

I think i don't have to elaborate on the conversation that i had with my dad on the phone..but he gave me, actually MARA gave me so little time to think that i burst into tears, thinking that this could be the hardest decision that i have to make in my entire life..well if i had to choose between two extremely cute guys who's going head over heels for me, then that would be the hardest choice ever, but this time no guys were involved.

Do you wanna know why this was so hard for me?
  1. I was beginning to love UIA..the lecturers, the environment(islamic), my friends, and of course the fact that Midvalley was just 10 minutes away!
  2. I thought i had a good platfrom there..doing foundation in medicine for 2 years, i was beginning to accept the reality that i may be starting my degree much later than my friends.
  3. the offer that MARA made was very much tempting-1 year foundation and you are confirmed to have a spot to do medicine for degree..unlike UIA where i have to fight for that spot, i don't have to if i accept the offer.
  4. I know my parents wanted me to take this offer so badly because it was a 1-year programme, compared to UIA's 2-years programme.
  5. if accept the offer, this means i will be going back to my high school years because Kolej Mara Kuala Nerang is just like any other MRSM-the rules, the routine..if i choose to stay in UIA,i'll be living the university, like i've always dreamt of.   
My roomates saw the tears but they couldn't help in any ways. It was totally on me. Then, i decided to call Syahir, one of my most trusted friend to seek for advice. He said take the offer.Make your parents happy. I was still unsure so i called Azmah and Aliah..Surprisingly, azmah got the same offer and said her decision would be based on mine. If i accept, she would do the same.. hah!! now i have to make the choice for 2 souls!great! Aliah advised me to take the offer because to her, this was that once-in-a-lifetime opportunity..
I can't do this........................................................

I took my ablution and perform the istikharah prayer.........

I've never done it before...so i know God was the right place to seek true advice..Some of u would say that it's too late to perform istikharah when u have to make the decision by the day but i'll take my chances. God is great..

Subhanallah, that morning my heart was telling me something. I had that intuition, telling me to take the offer.

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And here i am, in Kuala Nerang, following what my heart told me to do..Welll......i can't tell you exactly that i am as happy as Peterpan in Neverland for making this decision, because that would be a total lie..but i'm catching up with things. And to prove how great the Mighty Allah is, he replaced my dear friends from UIA with new friends who are as good as them here in Kuala Nerang.and i am really grateful for that because the only thing that's keeping my smile here is my friends.My prayer has been answered, alhamdulillah..

p/s-UIA, you'll always be in my heart...

Qadaya & Rawaie 2011

Mak aii...die dh maen bahsa Arabla pulak...hehe...ala, takde apepun..Qadaya stands for kesedihan, manakala Rawaie lak stands for kegembiraan, or something like that..ketua usrah aku yang cakap..

So for this post I'll be telling a lil' bit of my journey throughout the year 2011, since we are reaching towards 2012...

Overall, i have to say 2011 is the toughest year in my life!! i repeat, the toughest! tougher than the year i had to get out of my mother's womb(1993), tougher than my PMR and SPM years(2008&2010)..because i've to face a lot this year and i think this is the year that i've actually felt what stress is like...seriously...so, to make things short, i'll just list down my ups and downs for 2011(there she goes with the listing method again..haha)

QADAYA
  • I didn't get the first line for MARA scholarship.
  • I had to say goodbye tu UIA...missed my friends there like hell!
  • I hated Kuala Nerang for some reasons...charlie and all the other batalions of insects!
  • Chemistry was damn hard and i kept sleeping in class..i think i'm cursed! haha
  • on the last two days of exam, the girls' dormitory had ran out of water so we had to actually go to other places(except for the boys' hostels of course to freshen up, to pee pee and poo poo...yeah! that seriously 'made' my day..
  • i probably won't see my best friend again(Muhammad Syahir bin Khairul Anuar) as he's graduating..i'll miss u buddy!
  • i actually screamed one of my clasmate's name(sorry Adib) for being so tensed because of maths...curse u integration!Adib was the prey and i was the predator..
  • i think i've ran out of positive-thinking this year...i always whine, complain and i rarely smile like i always do.....
RAWAIE
  • I got straight A's for SPM! the ultimate happiness..
  • I got into UIA to do foundation in medicine..
  • I got MARA scholarships to do medicine in RCMP..
  • my hatred towards Kuala Nerang lessen because of my classmates..i love u M3!!! so dearly...u guys are everything to me...God is great!
  • alhamdulillah, i got >3.5 for every standardised test for this semester..the only thing getting in my way is chemistry and maths!
  • i got my best friend here who are always there for me....love yah Azmah and Syahir!
  • i'm really grateful to have girlfriends who play basketball like every evening and always forces me to go out and play eventhough i sucked!!haha 

Actually, there's more from where all these came from...like, i actually wasted one day of studying to finish up a video(never got a clue at how people can see me as the IT freak) and only to be disappointed by the rejection for not finishing the video on time..could u just imagine how frustrating it is that your work was rejected when u can actually finish it and the fact that u didn't study for the whole day when it was just 2 days before the finals and u could just watch your other freinds study???!!!aaarggghh! seriously, i've never felt more stressful than that particular time..but as usual, being the 'nice-little-lady-who-doesn't-whine', i kept quiet about it..and i've forgiven but never will i forget. because that will be the starting point where i realised that i never would want to be the person being stepped on on the head or stabbed in the back. The end.

And to make things even, i would like to add on to the rawaie list..I've never felt happier to receive 3 chocolate bars from Syahir..hehehe it was 3 solid cadbury bars! medium size! so what can u say man..syahir, u really know how to light up my day. =) can't wait to get something from u from Australia..haha

so to 2011, adios!! and hello 2012

...okay i think i'm a lil' bit too punctual here..but if u follow the islamic calendar, it's already new year! yay!

i guess that's all for this post..next,i'll just put up some pictures, some memories i had for this year..

CFSIIUM..(May-July2011)

2 of my besties...athirah and athbirah..hehehe a.k.a mimi and thirah..

with our dearest Arabic teacher..the coolest ustaz ever!
English class!!







KOLEJ MARA KUALA NERANG(July 2011-May 2012)


gila-gila di surau

cheering for our debate team! go RCMP!

yup...i've found the reason to my stress

it's war!!
Toodles! =))